Let Me Die On My Own Terms

2006-05-29T01:13:00.000-04:00

Yo! New sites hoe.

Sorry, didn't tell you before..but yeah ya'll deserved the wait..haha losers

2006-04-26T10:51:00.000-04:00

~~The Most Beautiful Heart~~

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was proud and boasted more loudly about his most beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine."

The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed.

"You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. "Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance.

Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands.

The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.

2006-04-24T03:49:00.000-04:00

Scare Bears

!Kick-ass band. Seriously, next big thing! Fucken A! This band is now my favorite band of all times. They even have a

MySpace

that you can check out. ^_^ Woohoo!

Apoligy to Bunny

2006-04-23T00:17:00.000-04:00

Bunny Vendeta.

Bunny the girl of my dreams. Really, no, now if they were nightmares then we'd be talking. No, I normally don't rag people. That's why you never find my blog the top of rants. I don't like talking bad about other people. Unless they're mexican of course, only kidding. For a way for making up everything i said to you Bunny, here is my apolgy for the world to read. Posting it on my own site for everyone to know what a mistake i made picking on someone like yourself.

I did not intend for you to get upset. Nor did i intend on angering you. Didn't mean to make you mad. That wasn't my intentions. My intentions were only to bring you a smile in the day. One less person in the world, with a frown on their face. My life revolves around making others happy. I give up all my time in order to make one more person happy, in a days time. Every minute of my pathetic life is spent talking to others. Helping them with self-insecurity and thoughts that they have that resolve in them being sad. Sorry for making your day a living hell, Bunny. Never intended on that to happen. Apoligy for the world to read is writen here now in these words. I'm sorry for the things i said. If i could take them back now i would.

Just to let everyone know, at the moment it's raining. ^_^

I'm sorry for the words that i have ever said to anyone and offended them by it. I'm also sorry, that sorry is never good enough for anything in this world. As for everyone, have a great Sunday.

My day consists of:
Getting up at 10 a.m. to go hiking across the land, to go the the hidden swimming hole.
Rafting when i get there and taking a dip in the water.
Eating lunch.
Walking back up to the road, and back to my house.
Getting in the door and getting online and check mail/comments on everything.
Taking a shower.
Laying down in my bed listening to music for a while.
Playing guitar until i get bored with it.
Getting online the rest of the night and doing school work.

Sounds boring, right? I have no life. I do the same thing almost everyday. Oh well, it's life. Deal with it. It goes by faster then anything you'll ever know. Good night. Sleep tight. Sweetdreams, and all those write on here later things.

Show The World The Warmth In Your Smile

2006-04-22T08:14:00.000-04:00

This is where the road crashed into the ocean,
It rises all around me and now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces will choose to ignore
Curse my enemies forever
Let’s slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy
I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I’m pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk
But talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you

Ha. Ha. Ha. Losers!

2006-04-18T17:28:00.000-04:00

Woo! You all are a bunch of pussys. Everyone that reads this blog is a pussy. Lol. You all are so retarded, as well.

Fun Night, huh?

2006-04-15T06:05:00.000-04:00

My friend, Ames, told me about this guy she was chatting with on the messenger AIM. He told her he currently worked in the National Coast Guards. We all know what those are right? Well he started trying to get her to believe this. Ames knows better because she knows a lot of stuff, random stuff at that. He said things like, "I'm tracking you down this instant and will show up at your house in 30 minutes." For one, if he was so called "tracking her," he'd known for one she was a girl. He thought it was a guy named James from the screen name, she was using my screen name to mess with him and not her own. I know now why people hate teenagers so much. So right now, I'm basically having her relay the information to me. She is so smart though. It scares me that i know her. I don't know anyone who know all this stuff. Oh well, i don't listen that much either. Well i'm off here.

I Want To Be A....

2006-04-14T17:11:00.000-04:00

Ha. ha. Now the life of a pornstar would be great, wouldn't it? I mean you can have guilt free sex with about anyone you want. Not that i would. I don't even have sex now. It's my own choice not to. I still think living the life of a porn star would rock.

I Want To Be A Rock Star

2006-04-13T05:16:00.000-04:00

I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got what it takes. The drive and the determination. And the lucky breaks. I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got the face. I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got what it takes. Seeing my face up on the TV. Hearing my songs on the radio. People waiting all day in line to see me. Doing my pose for Rolling Stone. Living lifestyles of the rich and famous. Turning all heads in the music scene. Flying in my own jet plane to Vegas. Riding in a big black limousine. No, I ain't got nothing. But, to you I'm something. Something so much more. I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got what it takes. The drive and the determination. And the lucky breaks. I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got the face. I wanna be a rock star. But, I ain't got what it takes.

A Kick-ass Blog I Came Across A Few Days Ago

2006-04-13T04:12:00.000-04:00

This is a 15 year old kid. She is a very bright young girl. Her page is out-standing. Leave her a message and please take a moment to look over her site. It will be well worth your time. Her name is Heather by the way.
I like the way she is so young yet, she writes like an older person. She has so much imagination as a teenager. She also likes most of the same bands that i do. Which is a major plus in my book. lol. I like her writings the most though. They have so much meaning. Now, i'm just sounding queer. So i'm going to end this now. Baby, I love you Sydney. I love you Shandi. Talk to you two later on.

Dearest Bunny Dear

2006-04-11T23:18:00.000-04:00

Here's to the girl that wrecked my world,
The angel that set me in,
Against my will, I've got time to kill,
So, I'm going to write this just for her,
These few words,
You were the only girl that had my heart,
Now you've ripped it apart,
Broken into several pieces,
Can't believe you'd do this to me,
I thought we were meant to be,
I guess you had better things to do then some juvinelle,
Those times you wished i would try,
Sleeping at night,
I'll never be alright,
Not without you,
My heart is so blue,
No, baby i can't live,
Not without you.
But i'm moving on,
I know i was wrong,
Your words all old,
The bend, they fold.
I'm over you,
Who knew?

Rock 'n' Roll

2006-04-10T23:57:00.000-04:00

I don't know about you, but when I was little, one of my biggest fantasies was to be in a band. Come to think of it, one of my biggest fantasies NOW is to be in a band. Being on-stage is, without a doubt, the coolest part. However, there's a lot more to being in a band than just wearing tight leather pants and owning the spotlight. There's also long rehearsal hours, big arguments with your bandmates and mind-numbing touring. I guess what I'm trying to say is that there's more to being a Rolling Stone than just the rock and "rolling". I want to be in a band just without the glamour puss part.

^m^ (-.-) ^m^
^m^ (><) ^m^
^m^ (-.-) ^m^

Music= Imagine-A Perfect Circle

2006-04-10T03:10:00.000-04:00

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Long Night

2006-04-09T04:21:00.000-04:00

So basically i've done it again. I've stayed up all night, yet again. I really want to sleep right now and can't.
Anyways enough of that bullshit. Some Luke dude thinks he is the "King of Rants." Pft! That dude wishes. Come on we all know that Butch "rules everyones ass." So that obviously makes him rule all rants. I mean come on. You think of good rants you automatically see Butch's blog. What an ass.
On to other news. There has been a hamburger hit by a semi earlier today. Saddened many civilians are holding a ceremony at the funeral home nearest you. It would be much appreciated if you could make it to the funeral. It's still undecided who will speak. We haven't figured out if ketchup or mustard want to say a few words about their dear friend. Although we lost a fair burger in our community we must press on. We can't let these smashed buns get us down. Thanks for the time and sympathy upon reading this.

Another Nite Spent Awake

2006-04-08T05:14:00.000-04:00

i can't seem to sleep anymore. INSOMNIAC all over again. I don't know my thought keep me up at night. Right now i have so many girls that want to date me. It's beginning to become a hassle. My life is like a damn soap opera. Ever girl i've ever met ends up falling in love with me. I don't like that that happens. I don't even mean for it to happen. I just be myself. Like right now i have An Un-named girl (her own protection), Kristie, Ashley, Some Un-named person (for their own protection), Meghan, Shandi, Laura, Steph, Chelsea, Brittany, Abbey, Kaia, and so many more girls that want to date me. I mean i think i should just turn into some asshole. Maybe then girls won't be all into me. Arg! Drives me crazy hoe easy girls fall in love. I'm just like every other dude. i mean i have a dick so yeah i'm just like the rest of them. I mean some of us may not have one (butch) but i'm not going to mention any names.
Still i only said that because butch is one my fuck with list this weekend. Just had to say something about my little icons didn't you butch? ha ha. Oh well no fuss man. All truth. Well ya'll i'm off here for now. Haven't passed out yet so i'm going to try and make it to my bed if i even can. So i can get up at 10 and call Shandi.

PEACE BRAH

Yeah i have no clue.

2006-04-06T17:14:00.000-04:00

oh my friend how did you come to trade the fiddle for the drum?

Arge

2006-04-04T23:37:00.000-04:00

Damn Man! What is up people? Shit be happening left and right anymore. Oh fucking well. Hope everyone having a great ass time. I know i am. Dude i'm off here. I 'll write something later.

2006-04-02T12:13:00.000-04:00

Last Nite was super UGH!!! Until i got home and talked to shandi until 3:30am. I ended up getting in a fight with my ex girlfriends older brother because he was uberly drunk. He was hanging all over this girl and shit i mean come on it was only right for me to put him in his place. His friend ®udy busted me in the back with a beer bottle. So now i have a huge ass bruise on my back. Which i don't mind because it doesn't hurt. Right now my Rents are leaving. Thank God! I just wish my little sister would go with them. >< My ex is totally ignoring me right now because of what i did. >< girls i swear.

So that is what happened last night. Today all i got planned is Staying at home until later on and talking to shandi all day and hopefully my g/f if im lucky enough to even get that part. So i'm guessing i'm stuck here with my sister all day seeing as she didnt leave with the rents. ugh i hate not being home alone it bites major balls.

2006-03-31T14:52:00.000-05:00

PARTY

WOOHOO party tonight...if anybody needs me for the next three FUCKING DAYS i'm not going to FUCKING BE HERE...lol....so CALL THE DAMN CELL...that's if you know the FUCKING number!!!!!!!!!! lol

ROCK ON

Don't Fucking Doubt Me

2006-03-29T17:50:00.000-05:00

I've been hiding the fact that i haven't been eating for a while now. Everytime i eat it makes me sick to my stomach. I can't help the feeling. Then if i don't eat i feel sick as fuck. Like right now i feel so sick to my stomach. Probably because me and sydney just got in another fucking fight because she's always got to be on my case about things. I'm sick of feeling like crap. I'm sick of my stomach hurting. I'm sick of being told to eat. I'm just sick of fighting with everyone. It's bullshit. I shouldn't have to fight with my own girlfriend everyday just because she wants to be a bitch.

SOMEONE TAKE THIS PAIN OUT OF MY GUT...it's almost taking my breath away...

I Scare Myself Being Like This

2006-03-28T08:40:00.000-05:00

Men Fall In Love Faster Then Women

In a case study it was determined that men do fall in love with women faster. It is determined that the male hormones for love are higher in men then in women. Guys fall in love after just three good dates. A man is attracted right away to any girl in his vision that looks beautiful to him. So if you thought it was women that fell in love faster than men you were incorrect. Of couse, a man can easily forget he is in love with a woman and easily fall in love with another, as women always remember and never give up on that love. They try to make it work no matter how hard it hurts them in the end. So if you want a guy. The easiest way to get him is to have him entertained enough for three dates. Have him see you as the wonderful person you are and don't be afraid to have a good time around him.

I wrote all of this word for word. Surprisingy, eh? I had to get up early this morning due to the fact that i get the pleasure of watching the baby. Lucky me, huh? Right now, the president is on talking about some Andy guy. Lol. God i don't like Bush. Eh, oh well i guess. Everyone gets fucked some way in life. I wish i could be as stupid as our president and get tied up on big words. Oh wait, ha. ha. i do! Well this is enough for today!

Your Never There

2006-03-27T18:30:00.000-05:00

Freaking People i swear. Lol. You all are nuts! I have butch laughing his ass off at god knows what. Then that one dude that i don't even know talking about BBQ Sandwiches. But okay then people. Lol. Does any one else think all parents should burn in hell? Or is this just the way i feel?

Said I'm Going Crazy

2006-03-25T18:26:00.000-05:00

I finally realized, what the fuck am i on?

I was never the way i am now. I used to not give a shit about anyone and used to piss where ever i wanted whenever i wanted. Fucking parents i swear. Right now the dumb dirty bastards are playing poker. Right behind me. They are such Fags.

On to other news....

the little kid across the street came over today and i threw a football at him to get him out of the yard. Little fucker was trying to steal shit from me. Fucking kids i swear! I mean i know i'm 17 but FUCK! i did the same stupid shit but eh so wha. Little kids just piss me off way too damn much! Especially the ones across the street. They are all fucking dumbass hillbillys. The live in a trailor with a window busted out and the door is falling off but they bring in loads of fucking windows in a truck. The dumb bastards are too damn lazy to put one of those windows in their window because that would be WORK!

and other news.....

The world ends in seven days and your all fucked. =\ Have a nice day!!

Promoted By Hamburger

2006-03-25T17:10:00.000-05:00

Recently it's been the score of:

TEN to FOUR

TWENTY to TWO

and...

FOUR to ZERO

I keep beating the cats.....watching the race across my front porch just pisses me off..,..They tore up the garbage tthis morning as some kind of revenge on me...just wait when i see the one that limps again and watch a bullet flow straight into his hide =]

Hamburger is right CATS SUCK!

She's Just A Girl

2006-03-25T02:19:00.000-05:00

If she's just a girl, why is it so that i cry so many tears over her? I never cry over anyone. I do over her. I know she doesn't want me. I mean at least she pretended that she didn't. If you cry over someone, does that make you weak? oOr were you that much in love with them? I can't think straight or anything right now. I can't see with blurry vision.
[ this is not one of their songs though this is my feelings of the day ]

FIREBALL MINISTRY ROCKS OUT!!
You all should listen to them...

*headbangs*

Let Me Die On My Own Terms

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Apoligy to Bunny

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Show The World The Warmth In Your Smile

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Ha. Ha. Ha. Losers!

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Fun Night, huh?

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I Want To Be A....

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I Want To Be A Rock Star

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A Kick-ass Blog I Came Across A Few Days Ago

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Dearest Bunny Dear

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Rock 'n' Roll

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Music= Imagine-A Perfect Circle

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Long Night

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Another Nite Spent Awake

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Yeah i have no clue.

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Arge

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Don't Fucking Doubt Me

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I Scare Myself Being Like This

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Your Never There

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Said I'm Going Crazy

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Promoted By Hamburger

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She's Just A Girl

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